and today, well, it’s starting off in the same way….

Yesterday sucked. Yep, that’s right. I said it, it sucked. My leg hurt so bad I cried on the way down the stairs with Hannah and had to have Jason come help me. I woke up to an overdrawn account, (because I transferred all our money into savings not taking into account certain things). I’m in the process of trying to get our Air conditioning in the Van fixed because it has blown the compressor 4 times in the last year since our front end collision. IT’s clear it’s FROM the collision, but it’s hard to PROVE it. So our insurance company wanted us to take it to the HONDA Dealership to prove it. A simple diagnostic they said would cost at the MAX $250, (which was WAYYYYYY more than I expected bringing it in, remember, overdrawn account)….. Well, they didn’t figure it out, and still charged us $250, it was going to be 100’s more to continue looking for the problem and “Prove” it had to the with the accident thus getting us our money back and the problem fixed…… BOO!!!!!!!! Okay, I’m fuming thinking about it. This is NOT what this post was about. More bad something, an ATM machine in Occidental drafted $42 from my account but told me it was declined and I got no cash……… and I’m not even going to go into all of the garbage we are dealing with regarding our previous landlord and her hiding from us. Oh and did I mention my leg hurt like CRAZY!!!!!!!! I might have been able to handle this all better if my leg didn’t hurt so seriously bad!!!

So as much as I wanted to get on facebook and RANT about all of these things, to have people feel sorry for me and thus someone make me feel better, I decided against it. I decided to make a list of all of the things I was thankful for instead, and remember how TRULY and HUGLEY Blessed we are. So for my own benefit, I am listing the things I came up with here. Today is not that much better in the money and stress department, so I need to get these things down and cemented.

1. I got to spend the whole day with my dad, as he drove me around, and we waited for my car to be done.

2. My dad loves me and my children more than anything in the world. I’m so blessed to have him as my dad.

3. My house that I was in too much pain to clean or bend over to pick anything up is a gift from God, It is perfect for our family in so many ways and regardless of the current financial woes, we have the $ for Rent and we love living here. We are blessed.

4. Even though Hannah did not get one nap in her bed yesterday due to the all day running around, she slept short spurts in the car, was a perfect, agreeable angel, happy and smiling all the time. As usual. This child, is God’s gift to this stressed out family. I can’t believe how blessed we are with her and her temperament. We deserved an easy baby this time, and we got just that. Not just easy, sweet, calm, adorable as all get out.

Today I get to stay home and do nothing while I continue to let my leg heal. Well, do nothing is not really true…….. but not going anywhere.

Last night as I was writing this list, it was 8:40 and everyone was in bed. Maybe not asleep, (Elijah and Micah monkeys) but they were all in bed, and bedtime rituals were done with.

I got to talk to my pastor, his wife and his sister on Facetime, (some of my best friends in the world). Although that is not usual, it’s something I’m so thankful for. Not only for my Pastor but for his family who are like family to me.

Even though I feel like this problem with the Air conditioning will NEVER get fixed, and I’m sure it is REALLY harmful for a baby to be in such a hot car, I am reminded of what my mom told me when it first broke almost a year ago……. “Willow, we never had air conditioning in any of our cars while you were growing up, you were fine”. Oh, what we have grown to know as normal. We are blessed.

We recently bought Jason a great car whose air condition DOES work. 🙂 So if he needs to take the Van to work in the summer, we can all fit in the Sedan. LOL.

We are all healthy in the house, and not sick. Something to be grateful for. In fact, short of a VERY quick stomach bug around Christmas that spared Hannah and I, we have not been sick at all this winter.

My house may not have the furniture I want in it, it may not be stylish and pretty like some of my friends houses, but it’s big, and beautiful, and holds us all well……….. I am so thankful. The rest will come in time, I’m sure.

I have a husband who loves me, and thinks I’m beautiful. He loves his job, even though he’s a bit stressed at it right now.

Benjamin loves Hannah, and he is kissing her and showing affection towards her regularly now. SUCH a blessing after him not taking to Micah at all, which is STILL a problem.

He is not having many seizures……… and is eating an almost regular diet.

Elijah and Micah are the best brothers in the whole wide world. Really.

Hannah just smiled at me, and all is okay in the world.

Have I proved it to myself yet? There is far more to be thankful for. God is constantly working, moving, helping, changing. Rest Willow. Rest in Him. Amen.